I'm Letting Go

I have been walking in a season where I am learning to let go and trust God more.  I wish I could say I am passing every test with flying colors but sorry that is not the case.  I tend to focus on the problem and how I can fix it instead of looking to God and what He says about the situation.  Jenn Johnson puts trust in a great perspective.  She said true trust is always believing that all of God's intentions toward us are always good!  Sounds simple doesn't it?

Because I was not walking in this simple truth I was wearing myself out trying to calm all the storms that were raging in my life.  Recently I cried out to God saying I could not handle it anymore.  Now I am sure He was waiting for that exact moment when I said I cannot do this anymore because He was great to step into the situation and show me His perspective.  The storms that appeared so big to me are so tiny in comparison to Him.  With one step of His foot He can crush the storms because He is towering over them.

I am still walking this truth out but it is so liberating.  When the storms rise at work I sense the frustrations coming on and I look to Him and peace returns.  Recently a situation happened that I allowed the storms to again rise up and the waves to crash against me.  Like Peter I focused on the wave and started to sink as I felt the water closing in on me.  God broke through and began showing me the truth of that situation.  He showed me that well intentioned words spoken to me when they went into my inner man became twisted and spoke against my identity in God.  After the fact God spoke two words to me:  inferiority complex.  Not being sure of the exact meaning of these words I googled it and here is what I discovered.

An inferiority complex is a lack of self-worth, a doubt and uncertainty, and feeling of not measuring up to society's standards.

This definition spoke to my old man and not my new identity in God.  God says He has called me to greatness!  God's plans for me according to Jeremiah 29:11 are for my good and not my harm and to give me a hope and a future. 

So instead of seeing myself as worthless and not measuring up I began reminding myself of who God says that I am and because the well intentioned words attacked God's plan for me I reminded myself of the hope and promise He had given me even if I am only stepping into a small portion of His plans for me.

I am learning, slowly at times, how to let go and just trust God in any and every situation that arises.  I am learning, again slowly at times, how to keep my focus on Him and not on the storms that rage around me.  I am discovering that as I focus on Him my perspective on the storm changes as well and I begin to see it as God does.  But first I need to continually learn to let go of the control and just fall into God. 

I love the new song by Steffany Frizzel Gretzinger called Letting Go.  I believe this has become my theme song for learning to walk in greater levels of trust.  I also love Proverbs 3:5-6.  I have shared two different translations below because I love how both of them bring out different truths of this Godly promise.

One last thing; I also shared a picture from the movie Titanic because every time I listen to any song off of the new Tides album I get this vision in my head but instead of the characters in the movie I am standing at the front of the ship with my arms spread wide experiencing complete abandonment and freedom in God.

May you too learn to let go of control and learn to trust God more.  May we continually fall into Him with complete abandonment and freedom.

Proverbs 3: 5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
⁶ In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct^[a] your paths

Proverbs 3:5-12

The Message (MSG)

^5-12 Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
    don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
    he’s the one who will keep you on track.
Don’t assume that you know it all.
    Run to God! Run from evil!
Your body will glow with health,
    your very bones will vibrate with life!
Honor God with everything you own;
    give him the first and the best.
Your barns will burst,
    your wine vats will brim over.
But don’t, dear friend, resent God’s discipline;
    don’t sulk under his loving correction.
It’s the child he loves that God corrects;
    a father’s delight is behind all this.